we ate dinner at this great restaurant on mount washington, overlooking pittsburgh. i'm not overly impressed with pittsburgh as a whole, but the view really was magnificent. and it was a great ending to a wonderful day. just before we left for the city, i got a message on my answering machine from ryan, the owner of the world's sexiest voice. and it made me feel so great, because i really admire him - i value his opinion more than i value a lot of other opinions, even though i can count on one hand the number of times we've hung out. that last evening i spent at his house (02.05.03) was one of the best i've had all year. but now i don't hesitate about spending time with him, because i know that he's not what i'm looking for. i remember last time i saw him, feeling this crazy ache for someone that chill, that strong, to be a regular face in my life. but i'm more sure of myself than i was then, and i have a sea of new faces waiting for me in a city hundreds of miles away. finally i feel sure that i will be taking both my head and my heart to philly. but for now, i'm still collecting moments to take along.