today the sun shone, i took a walk outside without a coat, and all of my frustration of the past few days was gone. it seems all is right with the world again. it probably was yesterday, too, even though i was too caught up in myself to see that. i've been told that a friend is someone who knows who you are, and reminds you of that when you forget. i have a friend like that. last night he grabbed a blanket for me and walked me to his warmed-up car parked outside my dorm. we drove to sheetz and made me a cup of coffee - a little french vanilla and the rest caramel, just like i like it. he bought me a sugar cookie with pink icing. and then he drove me around in the dark and told me that, well, i was being ridiculous. he asked me how i could possibly doubt God's plan for me. it was what i needed to hear. we were listening to this great cd by a band called the doves. a copy of it appeared in my mailbox today. and i think this is my song...

Think of me when you close your eyes
But don't look back when you break your ties
Yeah think of me when you're coming down
But don't look back when leaving town today
And late last night
Makes up her mind
Another fight left behind
There goes the fear again
Let it go
There goes the fear
Let it go
"there goes the fear" - the doves

well, i'm off to bacardi-gras. i'm leaving the fear at home tonight.