spinning

the world just keeps spinning, you know? sometimes i am amazed by this. no matter what goes on, whether we are bored by life or going through a terrible uphill climb, whether we are noticing the moments or not, the days just keep drifting by. spring is already on its way in again. my short haircut has grown into something that's starting to look like me again. even my internship is starting to wind down. finally.

i guess that's all i wanted to say. i feel like i am growing a lot these few months, which mainly means that i'm being given a lot of chances to see how little i know despite all i've learned. i feel like i am spinning, too; like the world and i work so hard just to end up where we started again after the day is over.

i heard a sermon about how God's desire in creating man was to walk with Him in the cool of the day. i make it about so many other things, but it's the evening walk that He wants. it's my heart that He's after. so if i'm not gaining ground or losing it, if i am mostly spinning all the time, but we take that walk in the evening, i guess i am just where i need to be, unlearned lessons and all.