a fierce blue sky brought an even more ferocious wind with it on this november thursday. outside my window, trees are dancing naked. i am making tea, wishing i was out there too, cold but alive. i'm thinking about living, living today for today's sake, not as if tomorrow will never come, but as if tomorrow will be eternity and obliterate all that this life has been. i'd like to run away, i'd like to feel like life is happening right now, and instead i just feel tired.

i think this means it is time to dance. it has been a while.