lessons

do you ever wonder what you will think of these days when you look back on them?  i do.  i've been loving this song called blessings by laura story.  i hear it on the radio every now and then on my way to work.  and in the dark, in my car, still not quite awake enough to have my defenses fully armed, i cry.  life can be hard, and these years have been surprising, both in what they have brought to us and in what they have taken away.

the ironic thing is that i frequently look back on other times in my life that have been awful to walk through, and i feel this warm reverence towards them.  it's amazing to watch yourself change and grow and thrive, although these things can only be really appreciated in retrospect.  sometimes it's the weirdest, hardest, most unassuming moments that i end up looking back on this way.

i get the sense that this is one of those times for us, a time of teaching and strengthening and longing that i'll never want to walk through again...and yet, that i'll almost miss.

too bad you can't enjoy the lessons learned while you're walking through the cold and dry patches that get you there.