we have a baby girl! a healthy, beautiful, blessing of a baby girl. the world stopped for a few days while family and friends flooded first our hospital room and then our home. the gifts and meals are still coming, almost 3 weeks later. i can hardly believe she's here.
and suddenly, everything changes. i'm on maternity leave, so the change is amplified for me - both a loss of my normal routine and my normal daily interactions, and the constant hungry presence of a new little life that can't yet tell me what exactly she needs. it is a beautiful, exhausting, perfect time of learning how to deconstruct the meaning of a good day into successful breast feeding, a solid burp, a diaper change that didn't require a full room cleaning. i'm not good at it yet, but i'm getting better every day. and in the moments when i feel less like a mommy and more like a babysitter with a serious case of PMS, my amazing husband picks up our little lady and makes her smile like the sun, and i'm in love again.
so this is me, no makeup, living in yoga pants, smelling like baby spit-up, falling in love with a little girl that is half of me and half of him. we are smitten. she has changed everything, and all change is stressful, but this stress is so, so good.
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Hey, you're back. Imagine me checking your blog a year later and you're back. See someone is reading. It was so good to see your family at Uncle Jerry's funeral. Wish it was a happier occasion. Anyway, kiss the baby for me, and I wish I could have met your mom, too.
Love Aunt Dolly
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